Have you ever been deeply wounded? Has someone betrayed your trust? Are you staggering beneath the burden of multiplied sorrow?
You can’t live in a broken world without eventually being marred by brokenness on a personal level. All of us to a greater or lesser degree carry around emotional wounds in varying stages of healing. We all have our own WARRR story.
Old emotional wounds affect every area of our lives–
- Our behavior
- Our relationships
- Our choice in a marriage partner
- And our relationship with God
Many of us struggle with questions like–
- Why do I feel the way I feel?
- Why do I do the things I do?
- What’s wrong with me?
- Why can’t I change?
My WARRR Story is unique to me as yours is to you. They may have many common threads but each affects us in a deep personal way.
- The Wound (how we were hurt)
- The Affect (how the wound affected our self-image)
- The Response (how we acted out our pain)
- The Recovery (how our healing journey is progressing)
- The Redemption (how God is changing us through our healing experience)
My WARRR Story
I was raised the youngest of seven children of a poor farmer where money was scarce and food was in short supply. News of my conception did not bring great joy but rather one of regret.
When I was six years old I became the victim of a violent sexual assault. Being extremely traumatized, I was hospitalized and eventually lost my year in School.
When I was eight years old, my eldest sister moved in with us with her six children. Somehow I slipped between the cracks of the two generations as my needs for time and affection were neglected. The grandchildren now occupied my mother’s attention.
My ability to trust was destroyed. I didn’t think God could love me as a unique person. I developed very low self-esteem. I did poorly in school and was labelled a “slow-learner”. Fear and loneliness were my constant companions. Bouts of depression began to plague me in my teen years.
I craved affection from adults which set me up for more abuse. I pulled away from family relationships as I spent hours on my own in my room. Later in my teen years I hung out with people I should never have been with. I dated boys from dysfunctional homes. I lived dangerously, hitchhiking and spending time alone with young men I didn’t know.
After burning out from nine years in a difficult ministry in a government housing community and the deaths of my father and brother I plummeted into severe depression. The only way for me to heal was to turn around and face the pain of my childhood memories with a good counsellor and my Heavenly Father.
As I poured out my emotions I cried out —
God, who are You?
God, if You love me show me.
God, why didn’t you protect me?
I asked God to guide my healing process and give me the right books to help me heal. God answered my prayers. He led me through a five-year healing journey which drew me into an intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father. He gave me a craving for studying His Word and spending time in His presence. Each time I cried out to my Heavenly Father in agony, He answered me with a scripture or passage. By the end of the five years, God had given me over three hundred scriptures that helped me heal.
I now have a very intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He loves me more than words can express. He longs to have fellowship with me and wants to bless me in all I do.
My Heavenly Father has given me a calling. In 2014 “Healing Our Brokenness Ministries” was founded to help other wounded individuals. My book, “From Victim to Victor” was published in 2012 and I receive frequent emails thanking me for writing it. Its companion workbook was written this past year and is available through email. I am also the creator of WARRR Workshops which I facilitate at the request of recovery groups. I am a sought-after speaker for the healing journey, a gifted Bible teacher and writer of healing tracts which I distribute at my book signings.
Someone once asked me if the pain of walking through the healing journey was worth it. I answered; yes it was worth it, a thousand times worth it. Before my healing, I couldn’t feel my emotions. I walked around in a state of shock. I had never felt deep sorrow or red hot anger, but neither could I feel depths of love or heights of joy. My soul had been dead, but now I am fully alive, experiencing all of life, living in the joy of the Lord. Much of my time and energy is now spent helping other wounded individuals heal.
Read my book, “From Victim to Victor”. Walk with me through my healing journey from brokenness to wholeness as I struggle to find answers to the aftermath of many emotional wounds.
You will identify with my emotions. You will be encouraged as you discover God’s faithfulness and grace in the most unlikely places. You will find hope and strength for your journey.
Founder/Executive Director: “Healing Our Brokenness Ministries” (2014)
Author: “From Victim to Victor” (2012)
My book, “From Victim to Victor” may be purchased through Amazon, Chapters, or Barnes and Noble.