Paula & Glenn

As I remember the impact 9-11 has had on the lives of my loved ones, I go back to this poem that discusses how WAR has affected families across America. My heart goes out to all those hurt by the horrible events on September 11th and the war that followed. I share this poem contributed to Bloom In the Dark to honor of my brother.

Living With War

Tears cascading down my face

I watch my man marching off to war

He stands so proud and tall

As he answers the call

To protect the weak and downtrodden

To defend our nation’s freedom

To support his troops

I smile through the tears

And keep waving long after he’s gone

Not wanting to turn and face

My life alone for a year

Patriotism won’t keep me warm at night

Loyalty can’t laugh at my jokes

Valor doesn’t show affection

I will strive to be brave

I will smile on our rare calls

I tell myself that our love is worth it all

We are just doing our part

Independence requires fighting

Freedom calls for sacrifice

Liberty isn’t free

Finally the day came

To embrace my strong, weary warrior

Who had fought bravely for us all

and survived so many battles

His body was whole and strong

His soul was battered

His spirit broken

Terrors he could still see

Nightmares making him scream in the night

Danger still haunting his reality

Loss permeating his days

Survivor’s guilt making him feel unworthy

Survivor’s hell tormenting his mind

Survivor’s medals reminding

I know he wants to protect

Yet he explodes in anger

Trying so desperately to keep us safe

From anything that could harm

Wars against communism to win freedom

Wars against all terrorists to win safety

Wars against “whom” to win “what”

Disillusionment destroys from the inside

Stealing his purpose in life

Replacing it with anything

That dulls or distracts from the war within

Controlling the outcome of every single thing

Restricting his loved one’s freedom

Forcing everyone to comply

God, please help me love

This broken man who is breaking me

Instill Your forgiveness in us both

As we navigate these stormy seas

Nurturing life to replace the death

Believing in hope and healing

Loving the unlovable

Surviving the war he went to fight

and the war he brought home inside

That’s caused damage in ways

I’ll never understand

Loving the husband who once believed

Forgiving him for his harsh cynicism

Praying for unshakeable faith

Years and wars have passed

Children have joined our ranks

Hello’s have matched every goodbye

Our family stands together against all odds

Choosing to love God first and then each other

Having faith that God’s plan is always best

Making the most of each day together

We Will Win This War!

[For complete poem with commentary get Bloom In the Dark in Kindle or paperback at www.bloominthedark.com]